In the entire english language, one of my most hated words is prolly "sorry". Come on..... seriously speaking hw much does tt word mean to u? for me almost always it means nth....apologising doesnt change anyth.... and apologising just makes u feel better... no it doesnt make me feel any better.... so all u sry ppl shud stop and ponder what u cud do to rectify the shit than to just b lazy and assholic and just say sry.... i hate this damn word.... im sick of it.....

Why isit so hard to find a gd quiet place to just b depressed and shit like tt? I went to the playgrd near my hse.... the playgrd has swings.... y do lovebirds like to go there? sure... its a common idea for coupels to b erm... enjoying each others company at the swing.... but hav u watched ghost shows? sad lonely ppl/objects aso hang out at the damn swing... i cant believe a couple came and sat the swing while i was sitting on the swing next to them.... seriously man.... but thxfully after a long period of hanging out at the swing i decided to go to the fitness corner to destress... and just as i left... a middle aged man came to the swing and sat there... for tt short period of time i felt a lil comfort... im nt alone.......

Whats with the overhype about birthdays? Whats with birthdays being happy.... whats with birthdays being special and all... if u ask me.... theres nth to b specially happy abt.... nor isit a special day.... it is just another damn day of this damn life.... im fine with it being a normal damn day in this damn life..... but im extra pissed abt all the overhype and "happy" shit... becos at the end of the day when i look back.... there isnt really anyth to be happy abt.... its fine if theres nth to b happy abt if its just like any damn day.... all the overhype and birthdays being happy and special makes me feel worse... becos for a split second of the day id think... sure ill see if theres anyth happy or special.... *cross fingers* waits anticipatingly..... but in the end im just left with disapppintments....sure.... hu the hell am i? but zzz..... if so then just kip all the wishes.... becos they actually really mean nth much to me... throughout the whole 19 yrs of my life... i hav nv once made a birthday wish....

Last years birthday was shitty..... guess what? this yrs isnt any betetr... in fact its worse... the oni difference is oni tt last yrs... i was angry.... this yrs im just a bag of disapppointments....

I HATE MY BIRTHDAY!!!!! AND FCKING SURE AS HELL AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL ABT IT!!!!!NOT EVEN AN ELECTRON BIT OF HAPPINESS AT ALL!!!!I HATE MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! I CANT STRESS ENOUGH ON THAT..... EVERY YEAR I TRY HARD AS HELL NOT TO LET PPL NOE ABT IT.... BUT THEY JSUT WANT TO NOE AND JUST MAKE ME UNHAPPIER... SURE IM HAPPY IF U REMEMBER PURELY BASED ON WELL U JUST WANNA REMMEBER .... I HATE IT WHEN U TRY TO REMMEBER BUT DUN HAV A SURE GUARANTEED IDEA ON WHEN IT IS....BUT JUST KIPS PRESSING ON AND ASKING ME WHEN ISIT AND WHETHER ITS TODAY.... IF UR SO SINCERE IN KNOWING THEN DO MAKE AN EFFORT TO B 100% SURE ABT IT SO TT U DUN HAV TO ASK ME.... id much rather EVERYONE treat my birthday as a normal day then lead me to naively hype abt it oni to b disappointed.... im sick of my birthday and i hate it.... I VE NV BEEN HAPPY ON MY BIRTHDAY......SO FUCK IT....